I try to forget.
I try to act like you don't exist.
It makes my stomach turn to think of you.
It physically hurts to see you.
How did it come to this?

I used to walk these halls hoping that I would pass you.
I used to rush to see you for those two minutes between classes.
Now I walk these halls hoping that I don't pass you.
Now I rush to class so I don't see you.

I used to lie awake thinking of you, smiling to myself.
Now I lie awake thinking of you, cursing myself.

I never thought that these feelings would be related to you.
I never thought there would be a day that I did everything I could to not think of you.
I never thought that I wouldn't want this anymore.
Well, I never thought a lot of things, but reality always prevails.