What happened to this being like "Ten Days"?

What happened to us?

What happened to our world?

I miss you.
I miss us.
I can't go five seconds without you in my mind.

I'm hurt.
I'm in pain.
I'm upset.

This wound is still fresh.
It is still raw.

It hurts more everyday.
The healing process is the hardest part.
But I know I have to get through it, for you.

This isn't how it was supposed to be.
I know that I caused it..
But that doesn't make it hurt any less.

I act like I'm okay, for your sake.
People say that they're proud of me.
For being so strong.
I hate it.

My stomach turns.
My throat constricts.
I feel as though I might get sick.

I want to leave.

I want to run.
I want to turn and forget all of this.

I never want to forget you.
I never want to forget what we had.
I want to forget this, right now.

I still love you.
I still care for you.
I still want to be with you.
I still miss you.
I still think of you constantly.
I still get excited at the end of the day because I think I get to see you.
I forget that isn't how it is anymore.

When will I get through this?